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I haven't been on in awhile so I figured I needed to post something. I had a wonderful time in Arkansas it was a blast seeing my friends and family.. It took we the entire time I was there to get use to the time zone just for me to turn around and come back to North Carolina and be an hour ahead. The drive was extremely long but it gave me plenty of time for thinking... a whole 12 hours both ways because of the detour.. Getting lost wasn't even so bad well except in the middle of the night in Memphis that was kind of creepie but all and all it is worth it and I would do it again in a heartbeat to see the people I love. In fact I have only been in North Carolina for 4 and a half months and was just getting use to it here and being happy and going home ruined it.. So I am moving back to Arkansas finishing school at the University of Arkansas in Fayetteville and then figuring out where to go to Med School since I do not want to go to UAMS. I am sad to leave my job here because I really do love the people I work with.. all of them and that is extremely rare but its like our own little family.. I feel like I have gained extra family members being here but leaving is something I want to do for me.. I moved here to be with my mom and to get away from Arkansas and it turns out that's where I want to be just a little longer. I've always been a Razorback now its just time to graduate as one. Leaving my mom here will be hard but I would much rather be around my sister and nephews with a short distance of 3 hours. Finding a job and a place to rent has now become the issue.. I really honestly wish I could click my heels together 3 times and have everything moved and settled. The only disappointment I have for going back is I am turning down school in New York but I would rather finish in Arkansas and go to Med School there than go there be unhappy and want to go to Med School in Arkansas.. Not that UAMS isn't great because it is I just want to be able to prove i can go on my own where I have no friends or family and make it on my own. Even though I have my friends from freshman year in New York I haven't seen them or even talked to most of them in 3 years. So things will be different and it will be a fresh start and I will be doing something I love. I think I am just ready for a new me.